Tuesday, September 27, 2011

How Amy Got Her Groove Back

I'm sitting here in front of a blank screen, wondering what to write.  I've been training, but it seems so boring to just post my training logs.  I'm pleased with my training - I'm hitting PRs every day in the gym. 

I'm moving more and more regularly.  I've increased my swing density, intensity, and volume.  I'm free of pain.  I'm finding my old groove again.

Or am I finding a new groove?  It's been quite obvious that I'm at a different point in my life.  My goals and motivations have changed.  What seemed so important a year or two ago seems insignificant now.  I have a clearer vision of who I am and what's important to me.

I know what energizes me and what drains me.  I do more of what moves me toward better and less of what tries to move me away from better.  I've developed a keener awareness of the activities and people that "test" well.

Sometimes I fall into old habits of saying yes to the draining activities and people, but I detect it more quickly so I can correct my course of action.  (Because this is a public blog, I will refrain from giving specific examples, even though the writing professor in me is screaming "You MUST provide specific examples so your audience can grasp what you're saying!!")

I used to agonize over every decision I made and stress when I chose unwisely.  Now I don't think so much.  I run tests - Does that course of action result in positive or negative feelings?  Positive? Do more like that.  Negative?  Stop doing that.  No obsessing.  Just data to inform future decisions.

What do they say?  "Every day is a choice."  I agree, but with a small addition:

Every day is series of choices.

Even more, every day is an opportunity for me to learn more about myself; my small corner of the world; and my family, friends, and colleagues.  Every day I get the opportunity to do better.

Now that's a groove I can get used to!

1 comment:

Diana said...

Great post Amy!
There's no better feeling than the feeling of "letting go"....
I've done the same thing and it's so great to be happy with it. I, at times feel almost selfish and non-caring, but I'm actually just more in tune. I hope that makes sense in what I'm trying to say!

BTW...no details are necessary-I grasped what you're saying!