In less than three hours, my life will be permanently altered. I have made another choice that will change my life. I am having lasik eye surgery this morning.
This might not seem like a big deal. After all, everyone is doing it these days. But to me, it is a big deal. I have never been able to see. I have been legally blind all of my life. I don't know what it is like to wake up and see immediately, to dive in the water and not have to worry about losing a contact, to walk in the rain and not have to look around spots, and the list goes on.
In ways I feel like I'll be freed today. Like any change, this one is making me feel a wide range of emotions. I'm excited, scared, unsure, confident, worried, anxious, exhilarated. Because my eyesight is so limited, the thought of losing what I have is unnerving. It is the one factor that has kept me from considering the surgery before now. Plus, my glasses have become part of who I am. I rarely wore contacts unless I was riding motorcycle or waterskiing. I don't wear makeup since my glasses are my "decoration." I'm afraid I'll feel naked without them. However, I'm sure the joy will soon overtake the self-consciousness of looking different.
So here I go! I've boarded the train and can't get off. Say goodbye to thirty years of one way of seeing the world and HELLO to a new one. The next time you "see" me, I'll be a changed woman!!!